i went for your wake today.i cried.i cried soundlessly and tearlessly.as i walked past where you were lying, i bowed.but bowing a hundred times is not going to make up for the wrong things i've done to you.i wish there and then that i could turn back time.that i could have a last chance to apologise to you.but i couldn't.then i looked into your coffin.i was wishing with all my heart, wishing that you would just open your eyes and yell at me in your loudest voice for gelling my hair.you didnt look yourself.you looked totally different.even then i loved you all the same.you looked weary.tired.and just for that one short moment i was comforted.comforted that you had left your weary and tired body, and was in a happy place in a new, perfect body.my tears stopped then.but it didnt last.once i had stepped out of the chapel i broke down again.finally the truth sank in.you were gone.in the body.no more would i see you in your trade-mark hair, waiting to pounce on me for any henious crimes i might be committing. you were physically gone.forever.even though you'll always live on in my heart, i'll never get to see you again for a long long time.i broke down.i had lost a principal, a teacher, a friend, a pastor, a disciplinarian, a counsellor, a motivator, a role model, a mentor, a mother.to lose so many in the brief span of less than a day was too much for even the toughest to bear.i broke down.i will try to accept the new principal.i know that is what you would want me to do.but i can only accept him/her as A principal.cos in my heart, only you are THE principal.you're irreplacable.

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